domingo, 25 de septiembre de 2022

 





ENVY


We will hardly admit

we ride the envy train.


Social media: True temple of God Envy

for worship, become a master of it

to recruit the naive.


We post our trips and relationships,

 what we are about to eat,

 the clothes we can buy or the bodies we build,

 we post our favorites jokes and phrases,

 the books we read, 

social -political critic, 

the music we hear, 

the concerts we assist,

 the movies we watch, 

the medals we win… 


What´s the aim of all these?

To share the joy? To spread wisdom?

To enlighten the ignorant? 

The secret aim is 

to harvest envy of all those who read.


Please reconsider,

what do you enjoy the most?

The view you hardly contemplate 

after taking the shot to post it…

The food on your table 

you gobble up

or the comments of all the others?

the person who appears in the photo

whom you hardly listen and care for

or the fact you are with “someone” 

parading in front of all the lonely?


The book that shows how smart you are

but you wont read or apply in real life.

The music or the movie depicting

how cool your taste manifests and thrives,

while you are attending your cellphone meanwhile

and later you cannot even remember what was what…

The years of marriage, complaining, complaining….

or the triumph over the sad divorces and singles,

the children you have while others could not

who you don´t play with or share a nice meal

without scolding or judging or suffering it.



You earn your money to get my envy

you have a boyfriend to make me envious

you have 5 dogs to feel superior

you chase the fun to win my sighs at home

you post your phrases to show you know better

and the best memes to be the first to post!


A race, a delirium

to feed from envy

a life starving while you have 

“likes-full” belly,

you go to the beach to have my envy

you climb the mountain to harvest envy

you get indebted to show off at the party

you waste your days craving envious faces

and comments of wanting

and relief for the few minutes 

you don´t feel envy.


Marisol Achirica 

2022

 




When I say I love you

When I say I love you
I may be feeling strongly
and surely I ́m excited
you are fulfilling all my wishes...

For that, I ́m grateful!
my heart is laughing,
girl with a candy,
kissed and loved abundantly.

The grown up woman will speak now:

When I say I love you
I ́m making a vow
to make you feel important to me
every day, loved and cherished, valued.
I ́m seeing myself smiling at you in the mornings and kissing you to sleep
looking deep into your eyes
thanking you for another day you live.

When I say I love you
I mean I will bring you teas, 
medicines and kleenex 
every time you feel poorly or you are frankly sick.

I ́ll stroke your head sweetly
I ́ll be tired with a smiling face
I won ́t complain
I ́ll kiss your hands saying loving words 
I ́ll sing for you to heal.

When I say I love you, its a verb to be acted:

It means I will cook for you and set your table,
learn the recipe you like and mind ,as if it is me,
if you are hungry or in thirst.

When I say I love you
I mean I ́ll let you sleep
all you need
and I ́ll be happy if you take vacations,
 even from me.

It means I ́ll try to my best
to overcome my anger, my stress
to the point to be polite and kind to you 
even if I curse the world.

But of course it also means
I ́ll apologize
for every time my pain-body wins
and brings you hurt and sorrow.
I ́ll put our love above me
and try to bite my tongue
before blaming you for my discomfort.

When I say I love you
I know I ́m still far away from really loving you
but I ́m also thanking you for inspiring me so sweetly 
to be my very best.
I´m thanking you
for  wanting to be my love guinea pig,
to be my teacher of forgiveness
and patience, of letting go and blindness
to all your little quirks that annoy my ego
but make you so adorable to me.

When I say I love you
I mean I want to learn to serve you
 in better and worse
so you can develop! develop!
and reach your most authentic self! 
And honestly, stop calling it love
 when I only care to serve myself!

Marisol Achirica sept, 2022